Please note, Amber will NOT be appearing at Chiller this weekend – April 26-28 2013

Unfortunately, Amber was stung by a bee under her eye and has too much swelling/bruising to fly. She is upset she can not meet her fans on the East and is trying to reschedule to appear at the October show! Stay tuned..

LIVE Chat with ME and Dr. Drew! Thursday, Sept. 27th 2012 1pm PST/4pmEST

DON’T MISS YOUR CHANCE to chat with Dr Drew Pinsky from VH1′s “Celebrity Rehab with Dr. Drew” and actress and model Amber Smith(“Celebrity Rehab: Season 2”) this Thursday at 4pm ET/1pm PST to discuss medicine abuse and recovery for The Medicine Abuse Project!

Join us as Amber will share her personal story of hope and recovery. Find out how you can join the conversation here http://ow.ly/dYVvl, and if you can’t make it, please share your questions below or e-mail them to webmail@drugfree.org (subject line: MTPH). We can’t wait to hear from you! #endmedicineabuse

I am posting my story (below) that is up at The Medicine Abuse Project website. Please visit their website to read my story and the inspiring stories of others! I know many of you can relate and know that (eventually) living in substance abuse becomes a nightmare! If you can relate to my plight in any way, please remember.. “You deserve a much fuller, more authentic life without the shame and isolation of substance abuse” (whether or not, the addiction is to street drugs, alcohol or prescription medication).

Substance abuse covers up emotional pain (“emotional pain” doesn’t normally feel like “pain” – it gets masked by the subconscious and tends to feel like a mix of boredom, emptiness, anxiety, restlessness and insecurity..  I meet many addicts who do not relate to the word “pain”.. Its only much later that they realize they were using substances to cover up “pain”. Don’t fool yourself!

If you can get to the source of the wounds you are trying to ‘numb out’ from, your desire to drink and use will dissipate. But healing your wounds (healing “emotional pain”) is very hard to do when you are still “using”. When you “use”, you are helping the subconscious hide the source of your pain. Its almost impossible to get at the root of the issues when you are numb! When you stop ‘using’ (by detoxing in a safe manner) the wounds start to come to consciousness (hence, the reason we use substances in the first place!!! to push back the pain!) But if you are reading this, then know “there are NO coincidences”- and you are ready to face the pain, heal your wounds and re-enter life!     much luv, Amber

Amber Smith, My Story

Amber Smith, My Story

Addiction definitely runs in my family. My dad, a former San Diego Chargers football player, was an alcoholic and my mother, a model and English teacher, had an opiate addiction. So it was no surprise when I developed my own pill habit at the early age of 17, after I was sent to Paris to begin my career as a professional model.

In the 90s, the French offered an over-the-counter medicine called Prontalgine. I had stumbled upon it when I asked a pharmacist for a strong medicine for a headache. I hit pay dirt when, surprisingly, I got a small high off my first dose. I flipped over the pill box to see it indeed had an opiate in it – codeine.

Though the amount of codeine in each Prontalgine pill was low (one-third the amount of opiate than in the painkiller Vicodin), you don’t have to be a math whiz to figure out you just need to triple the amount you take and you are good to go.

Though I was a stubborn young girl who refused to learn French, I did memorize one French phrase that I used frequently: “Mai j’ai 4 boîtes de Prontalgine veuillez?” (“May I have 4 boxes of Prontalgine please?”)

In Paris there is a pharmacy every few blocks and as a new model you do about a dozen “castings” a day to visit magazines and photographers. Needless to say, as I walked around Paris I would amass at least 20 boxes of Prontalgine in a 24-hour period!

At 19 years old, I was now ready to take on New York (the mecca of modeling!) I returned to America with a full portfolio of European high-fashion images but I also brought back a hefty opiate addiction.

Since Codeine cannot be sold over-the counter in the US, I started to doctor shop, visit emergency rooms and eventually purchased medicine online (barbiturates, benzodiazepines and opiates).

I did well professionally in New York and landed in issues of Sports Illustrated Swimsuit Edition and even on the cover of Playboy Magazine. Although I barely remember the Playboy shoot.

My agency, fed up with my substance abuse, performed an intervention when I was 22. It didn’t work and I left the hospital against medical advice. However, I decided to do what we addicts call a “geographic” to “get away from the drugs” by leaving New York for Los Angeles.

In LA, I started my new acting career sober — at least for a few months. I was seeing a therapist at the time to help me stay sober. Somehow, I convinced my therapist to write me a prescription for a few painkillers. Once I started again, my addiction was off and running.

Flash forward ten years and I was back in the hospital again. This time I almost died and it really scared me. Well, it scared me enough to get off the barbiturates and benzos, at least. The opiates stayed (after all, I needed something.)

I was proud of myself for eliminating two types of drugs out of my life but two years later, my opiate addiction had increased two-fold. It was kind of like cutting the head off a two-headed dragon — another one grew back in its place!

I was never in denial that I was a drug addict – I was in denial as to what drug addiction had done to my life. I had now been in LA for 12 years, had no friends and a barely-there love life. The passion I had for acting had died down somewhere along the way. (I don’t even remember firing my agent.) I had stopped leaving the house for weeks and sometimes months at a time.

And worse, my father had died of alcoholism and my mom, who lived with me at the time, had an opiate addiction that rivaled mine.

Our drug bills were sky high – now I was mostly dealing off the internet where a bottle of 100 Norco would cost $400 and last us three or four days maximum.

Now my savings, mostly made in my early modeling days, was nearly gone. As everything was coming to a head, I had actually met someone online. When we met in person, he revealed he was a drug addict. After his confession, I told him I was too – it was the first time I had been honest with anyone besides my mother.

Just a few months later he decided to get sober. He left me because he said, “I was still using and needed to get sober.” I was devastated. The first time I was honest with someone and he used it against me (at least that is how I saw it at the time.)

The story didn’t end well and I lost everything. Financially bankrupt and now heartbroken to boot, I found myself living in a motel room with my mother for three months. It was a hellhole of a motel in the worst part of Hollywood Blvd.

The synchronistic events that got me out of that motel is beyond the scope of this article. All I know is my mom and I were given a place to live, and just enough cash to eat with. I was sober now whether I wanted to be or not. I was in shock over stopping the drugs so abruptly, but it actually felt good. I was grateful to be alive after such a steep spiral but I had no idea how to sober.

I had remembered that the guy who broke my heart said he’d gotten sober through 12-step meetings. I tried it and took to it right away. I even met an agent who said I should go on the reality show “Celebrity Rehab with Dr. Drew.” I declined. I didn’t want anyone to know about my addiction and what happened to me.

But as time went on, I stopped caring about damaging my reputation. The image I had created in modeling of the “always-smiling, retouched, sexed-up, cover girl” bothered me. That wasn’t me or my reality and I was ready to come clean!

For the next three years, I did three shows with Dr. Drew Pinksy, all based around addiction. They were enlightening!

I also stayed in my 12-step groups and read about the human psyche and how to heal. When I had extra money, I put it toward therapy. I also got deeply into metaphysics — astro-theology, numerology, feng shui — and have recently started to study Kabbalah.

It hasn’t been easy. In early recovery I had a few bad bouts with anxiety and depression but, overall, my life has vastly improved!

I now live in my own apartment which I just decorated. I had never had my own place and certainly not one in which I was coherent enough to decorate. I honestly didn’t even know myself enough to know what décor I liked!

My mother is also sober and now lives in her own place as well. I still have a foot in entertainment and have landed some meaty roles recently. I think I have been through enough now to be able to relate to most of the roles that are dished out to me!

But I am moving toward something I find even more fulfilling — sharing my story. I have started to speak about my experiences to different colleges and I’m going to start to coach others on love addiction (an intimacy disorder that tends to run co-morbid with substance abuse) and I may write my memoirs soon.

I missed out on a lot of relationship years and I’m really only discovering myself now at the age of 40. It’s a little embarrassing to be excited about decorating your first apartment and wondering what direction to take your life and career in at this age — for these are typically concerns that someone out of college has! But my life took a strange course and I feel like I woke up from a long sleep. Though I may be starting things a little later than most people, I am just so thrilled that I actually woke up!

Public Screening of my new film “WHITE MULE”! FEB 22, 2012 ~ Come on out! xo, Amber


Hello Everyone,

It’s Amber Smith! I want to invite you to the Premiere of “WHITE MULE” – a visually spectacular short film that marks the directorial debut of Actor Peter Dobson!

I’m beyond excited about my lead role as “Ruby” (She’s Sassy, Sexy and Hard-Boiled!) and I’d love for you to come out and join us on Weds. Feb 22nd 2012, for our Screening, and after, a Q&A with the cast!

Director Peter Dobson has energy and originality in spades and famed Cinematographer Ron Vidor made his vision come alive in HD!

 

But see for yourself.. Here is our teaser reel:

WHITE MULE “TRAILER” VIDEO CLIP!

 

A few years ago I took a break from Modeling & Entertainment and began new career as a Public Speaker. As fulfilling as that has been, I must say I was honored to be offered “WHITE MULE” and think we have something special here!


“WHITE MULE” PREMIERE SCREENING

Weds., February 22nd, 2012

RED CARPET  7:00pm    SCREENING  8:00pm

@

Regent Showcase Theatre

614 N. La Brea Ave, Los Angeles, CA 90036

 

This Premiere Screening is OPEN to the Public – brings your friends!

Please RSVP to “White Mule” Premiere Screening FACEBOOK INVITATION

WHITE MULE (22 min.)

Directed by Peter Dobson

Producer Marc Clebanoff

Cinematography by Ronald Vidor

STARRING: (Supermodel, Actress) Amber Smith, Bob Spillman, Peter Dobson and Marcus Shirock

The “White Mule’” IMDB PAGE

Official “White Mule” FACEBOOK PAGE

I hope you enjoy it as much as I loved doing it!

~ Amber Smith

 


 

 

Amber Smith, Expert Panelist on “Virtual Sex” Internet Broadcast! – (all Booking inquiries please send to: Booking@AmberSmith.com)

View Amber Smith as a Guest Expert Panelist on “Virtual Sex”; the Internet Broadcast that explores “Love, Sex and the Internet!”. VIRTUAL SEX was a LIVE broadcast event on Oct. 20th 2011.. and it is now available to be viewed on YouTube!

Click here: VIRTUAL SEX INTERNET BROADCAST (to view Amber Smith and other expert panelist on the controversial new series about “Love, Sex and Internet”!)

 

Amber Smith is now an inspiring and sought-after Professional Speaker! She delivers a 45 minute touching yet inspiring lecture on both Prescription Pill Abuse as well as Love Addiction – both very important, timely subjects!

To book Amber to speak at your event, school or college – please inquire at Booking@AmberSmith.com

Amber Smith is available for Public Speaking bookings on the subject of LOVE ADDICTION – Booking@AmberSmith.com

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Amber Smith is available for Public Speaking bookings on the subject of LOVE ADDICTION and ALCOHOL/DRUG ADDICTION- To inquire, please email: Booking@AmberSmith.com

Booking Information – AMBER SMITH Model, Actress, Lecturer

BOOKING INQUIRIES:

  • Amber Smith is a well-known Model, Actress, and Reality Star who is available for you entertainment project, please email Booking@AmberSmith.com
  • Amber is also making a name for herself as a Public Speaker… She currently speaks on Alcohol and Drug Addiction. She also shines light on the new epidemic that is taking over America: Prescription Pill addiction! Her experiences on the ground-breaking television shows Celebrity Rehab w/ Dr. Drew, Sober House and Sex Rehab w/ Dr. Drew have exposed Addiction as the disease that doesn’t discriminate! The wealth of knowledge she has received working with some of the best Addictionologists in the world, as well as her own personal struggle with addiction, serve as a harrowing yet highly educational cautionary tale. To inquire about booking Amber Smith for your Public Speaking event, please email: Booking@AmberSmith.com